Took a little walk through my blog and saw how much I've fallen. Frustrated is a common word i use. Now, it is almost time to use bitter. Things have been taking a downward plunge since 5 months ago. It is bad enough. Please give me a break. I need time alone... again... at the botanic gardens? Where can I run to? There's no comfort, not even in death, nor some eutopia-like place... im trapped where there are no dreams and no future.